I’d moved out of home and now I lived alone. I’d left behind my job, my car, and my girlfriend of three years. I’d just moved to Melbourne, a city with a population 160 times greater than the humble town of Alice Springs I’d moved from. There’s a reason that the first step of any good rehabilitation program is acceptance. The amount of harm we can cause ourselves when we live in denial is staggering. It’s amazing how good we are at rationalizing-telling ourselves stories built of lies to hide the ugly truth from ourselves.
Nobody who has any kind of self-control drinks their cab money away for another few shots, especially when they’ve clearly had their fill already.
Nobody drinks themselves sick every weekend and winds up sleeping on a staircase because they’re happy. I told myself lots of things.īut they were all lies.
AFTER YOU BEAT BOOK OF DEMONS FREE
I told myself that I went out every single weekend and drank more Jägermeister than Charlie Sheen would advise because I was free, and that’s how free people lived. I told myself in sobriety that I was just a young dude who liked to party. My misery was compounded by the knowledge that things were only going to get worse when I woke up hungover and alone. The gates weren’t due to open for another two hours, the wait for the train would be yet another hour, and the ride itself another hour on top of that. I’d been drinking all night and I wanted nothing more than the warmth of my bed.īut my journey home hadn’t even begun. I sat, exhausted and alone after a long night, on the stairs outside the train station. If you believe it won’t, you will see obstacles.” ~Wayne Dyer “If you believe it will work out, you’ll see opportunities.
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